I don't really know where to start, so let's have some pretty dividers and titles, shall we? I would appreciate if you'd read it all.
and yes, you will need a coffee to get through it....
S W E D E N
Sweden and Denmark, and England on this occasion, and life as such.
Yes, I do love Sweden even more. That country is just so much better in every aspect, you wouldn't believe. And there is no white-trash and lover classes. Fair enough, you do find culprits everywhere. And their right-wing government is hot outsider friendly. Still, it is an amazing place.
Though, I have only been to the South of Sweden - from Copenhagen to Gothenburg. The higher you go the better nature, but I like everything else less and less. I need to go to Uppsala and above next time. I really want to explore the north and get to Finland at last, for comparison.
I mean, the main downside of that is that all the other Scandinavian countries are more folk and Vikingy. Yeah okay, on average Finnish metal sucks, but they still seem more... Manly, pagan and awesome. Same about Norway. All traces of history in Sweden consist of a couple of rune stones, as far as I know... And Swedish men look a bit gay. I mean, gay in a nice way, very proper and attractive, but it confuses you. I prefer knowing who I'm talking to xD
They are attractive as hell, though.
Not that many look like Berwald. In fact, most of the Scandinavians look like Denmark. Just unlike Denmark, they are really nice guys <3 I met the prefect Sweden at the airport, actually. I was gonna make friends, but he disappeared in the other queue. Ogillar, I was not happy.
Besides, the whole time was great apart from a few minor disappointment, but let's not talk about it. I have bitching about people. The person I met there is amazing and I loved being with her. Problem is she is not a "down-the-pub" person like me.
I needed that time in Sweden. I really did. I cannot even describe how much, but....
L I F E p.I
... but now it's England and grim, and no will to live.
I was very motivated to sort it out once I was Sweden, but all of that is gone. I've been two days here again ans I clearly can't put myself together.Life is not like I have imagined it all, this is not where I belong, for sure. It's like in that lame Linking Park song... Well, I mean a good song. LP used to be decent...
I will never know myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed I will never be anything till I break away from me
I've got to say it is all quite true. But I am far away from getting there...
Gods I need to get away from here.
L I F E p.II
I figured out, as long as I find a job, which should not be too difficult, especially if I manage to learn Swedish, I could easily have enough money to get a house within 3 years. Well, that at least gives me something to aim at, not necessarily have to happen... Honestly though I want to do my masters there. We will see. I don't even think I will be alive in 3 years to start with...
More importantly, I really like the life there. 8 hour sleep, exercise, breakfast, homecooking, sports.... Doing something. I was planning to continue it.
All motivation evaporated.
But hmm... Maybe I will try. 8 hours sleep, exercise, less time on the internet, doing something creative.... Like writing more than anything. It is definitely my favourite. And reading a lot. Thumbs up? Honestly guys, I request you not to have faith in my, for I lack it.
Also, I will start ice skating again (if I can)... I really want to do Ice Hokey again, but it's just impossible to do it in England... A woman... God I fucking hate this country.
A R T
or so they aim to call it...
I may draw something, not because I want to but because I have to do something. Please remind me about the commission and requests, okay? I really want to do them!
M O N E Y
Broke. I am 100% broke. I can't afford house rent and I need to buy COPIC markers. I wanted them for years now, butI can't afford them.... Does anyone know a way of earning money in days? Would anyone want paypal pencil commissions to support the found? I will cry in a second >.<
W R I T I N G
I'm going back to it, at last. I mean, no idea *WHAT* I'm doing.
I'll continue the Hetalia fanfic just to practice, but besides I have 2 stories in progress... Gehenna, which I will leave for now, and the Kinslayer, or HEX OMEGA, as the first part is called.
I need help with it. I really don't have ideas. I could do with some suggestions. And I will nag you about it.
That's all, I'm getting tired....
I will start purging my inbox soon too, so don't get angry if you have to wait another couple of days to get a reply from me..
i'm glad you had an enjoyable time in Sweden--i've always wanted to go there and see what it was like. Though the Swedish people i've met ARE extremely kind. I haven't met one that i don't like very much yet. And to be honest i don't think i will. I hope England will feel better to you--and you'll be able to affourd that house Good luck ^ ^
ah sounds like you had a great time in Sweden, and you know what? Thats exactly how I felt about Thailand after returning to NZ... honestly I think everyone just wants to move away from their home country, another culture and lifestyle is so exciting well at least I feel so...
Ahh, I have seen the photos! I love how hot countries still celebrate Christmas for the tourists, it looks so out of place I don't know, it is usually like that indeed! Most Swedes I know would say the same, in fact. Truth is - everyone who had the chance to experience England not just on holiday, will not want to come back here....
yeah and for rampant consumerism they try as hard as they can to push xmas despite the fact that no-one really cares there, even to encourage locals to spend a lot D: and they have about 15 malls just around the centre of Bangkok, I feel like I'm in a metropolis city.
hah I might go to england at some point, just because I have relatives there, but whenever I see it on the TV I always think t looks rather grey and dreary. Maybe England can also be a hub for my euro trip (would like to visit a friend in France & maybe drop by Germany if I have the money/time).
By all means haha, come and visit me... Apart from that, you may as well skip England... OR at least if you want to see amazing places I mean, it's good just see for yourself kind of thing, but if you have better places to go to, then do.
hah yeah that would be cool. I'd like to meet some of my devart contacts, there are only a couple of people on deviant art I actually know in person, it doesn't seem to be so popular in NZ. I just want to go anywhere and everywhere haha!
Gothenburg, there lives a friend of mine, want to be there once in my life too. Well, I'm glad you enjoyed (most of) the time over there. Bet there culture is very different then england (and germany).
Well... I just know from a friend, she was for a year in australia, and when she came back... she really hated germany. It's not that she hates everything but she simply knew something better - in that case australia, and now she is moving over there. If you feel better there, do it! It's better for you, to feel finally 'home'.
About the copic maker... they are damn expensive here too.. do you have paypal? If so, when I'm done with renovating my room, and I will have some rest money at the end, I will send you a bit (for comission or not, doesn't matter- but I mean it! Really. It won't be much, but maybe at least a bit - so you can buy yourself some copic marker). Had be sad if you can't draw - and I enjoy browsing your drawings so.
Well well.. long journal is long but guess you had to write everything down right after you arrived home.
Well, the culture is different but not as drastically as England. I mean, it's still Europe. In fact is has more in common with Poland than you would have imagined and I am pretty sure it is not that different form Germany either.
Gothenburg is really nice, I have only been there for a while but I've heard good things about it, especially in the summer.
I haven't got a clue why would you prefer austrialia.... Unless you like hot weather and venomous animals lol.... But sometimes that's the way it is with people...
((are you being serious? woah, I'd feel bad doing it but since I need it... tell me what I could do for you in return <3))
Renovating your room? I need to Skype you at some point :3
Yeah, long journal is long, but I am glad you've read it... And sorry for taking so long to reply, I have been absolutely killed by the amount of messages I get... I really don't want to be one of those deviants who never reply to the comments, but I guess I should start being, a bit at least....
I hope you are better than you used to be, love, love you too
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