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Journal Entry: Fri Nov 5, 2010, 5:43 PM

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Talk to me. I like hearing from you.


FIRST:

:snowflake: Please join this petition: [link] this cannot be that in 21st Centuries people still behave like fucken cavemen. I mean, you shout at Hitler and killing Jews, but those animals can still get away with it?

:snowflake: Support me. Wait for the day I become a dictator and I may spare you.


SECOND:

:snowflake: I beg your pardon, but there will be no saying 'thank you' for the faves for now. It's not that I don't care - I simply cannot catch up with life, at all, as such.

:snowflake: Thank you all for the support. I don't know what would I do without you. Well I mean, I do know - what I used to do just until two months ago - sleep 24/7 or get drunk. The whole holiday. I would not even reply to texts from my best friends.

:snowflake: I actually do suffer from depression. I'm on 40mg a day, which is not bad, but I have noticed it not working lately... I need to get something else prescribed. But for fuck sake, how can one be constantly failing, like I am?

:snowflake: I am pro ana. Decided at last, I am. From today my diet will consist of cigarettes and fruit, as it used to be. And chocolate. I must not be bulimic again.
I have liver problems. :shrug:

:snowflake: As I said, I cannot put up with anything right now. I have done almost no Uni work and I am half way through the semester. All I do is try to fight off the guys who like me, idiots. And idiots who stalk me online - yes, they actually get fake dA accounts etc.
I have a job which takes most of my free time, I have friends back in Poland who need my support. And someone I love.

:snowflake: I stood against feelings. I am still working on my sensible Nihilistic position of distance towards life.

See, I follow Nietzsche and worship Schopenhauer.

:snowflake: I need a fag, now.

:snowflake: I'm a failure. At least I don't self-harm anymore, though I was close the other day.


THIRD:

some people I need to thank:

:iconsayuri1314: for being here, talking to me, and teaching me Swedish. Hun, I actually did buy myself a book and I will learn :heart:

:iconbreathofindustry: :iconthymournia: for being amazing people and amazing artist, who have not lost faith in me.

:iconlakeofblood: for being a bitch, who makes me want to kill her and for slapping me on the face whenever I need it. And I need it a lot. I love you ♥

:iconwilliamfdevault: because I know, I am just being a bitch....  But I am still grateful for everything.

:iconcamisicado: :iconnourhan: :iconbetareject: :icondantea-demon: because you sickos still have faith in me....

And everyone I have not mentioned. I love you.




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:music:

listen : [link]
that's all.


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:iconjezabelsorrow:
*jezabelsorrow Nov 7, 2010  Student Photographer
:glomp: ^^
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~camisicado Nov 6, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
*hugs* Thanks so much for the feature, try and stay positive and know you're important to people!
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:iconinterfearia:
You're oh so welcome! ^______^ Thank you"""""" :*
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~camisicado Nov 6, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
<3 you're welcome!
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~Nourhan Nov 6, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
awww <3
thank you for the feature, love :huggle:

and keep up the great work, and esteem! all you need is love :tighthug: and ice cream :B
ice cream is awesome when you're depressed
don't be depressed D; think positive and life isn't as hard as it seems :XD:

lotta luv for you sweety :huggle::hug::glomp::iconsweethugplz:
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:iconinterfearia:
Oh boy, you're young, you'll learn....
I'm not just being depressed right now, I've been for years.... I'm predisposed or something.
Ice cream makes you fat >.<

Lotta luv to you too :icontardglompplz:


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~Nourhan Nov 7, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
maybe I am ;-; but still >w< you're never old to be happeh :dummy:
oh...well erm...you shouldn't...? :XD:
it does! but little ice cream doesn't >w<

:huggle:
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:iconblack-ban:
:hug:
(I want to hug you too, HA!)

Thank you dear and don't get you down or something, life still sucks for itself.

I want you to listen this song that probably you know, but listen it anyway. lalalala *singing*


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:iconinterfearia:
Haha yeah I know that song!
O gal thank you :huggle: I appreciate...
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:iconbetareject:
!BetaReject Nov 5, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:hug: Hang in there girl they say it is always darkest just before the dawn. You will make it through this and will be stronger than ever before because of it. :hug:
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